If I Stand

I was listening to Rich Mullins again. His songs never cease to impress thoughts upon my heart. It's like every time I hear them, something different strikes home! Here's the words to one of my favorites of his......I wish I could say I wrote it:

There's more that rises in the morning than the sun,
More that shines in the night than just the moon,
There's more than just this fire here that keeps me warm,
In a shelter that is larger than this room.

There's a loyalty that's deeper than mere sentiment,
A music higher than the songs that I can sing,
The stuff of earth competes for the allegiance
I owe only the Giver of all good things.

Chorus:
So if I stand, let me stand on the promise
That You will pull me through;
And if I can't let me fall on the grace
That first brought me to You.
If I sing, let me sing for the joy
That has born in me these songs.
But if I weep, let it be as a man
Who is longing for his home!

There's more that dances on the prairies than the wind,
More that pulses in the ocean than the tide,
There's a love that is fiercer than the love between friends,
More gentle than a mother when a baby's at her side.


I just really like the part where he says "stuff of earth competes for the allegiance..." Anyone else out there have that problem???? I sure am glad I am not God. If I was God, I couldn't stand people like me! I mean, here we ask our heavenly Father for blessings, and because He is the good father that he is, he lovingly give us so much. Yet, then we get so caught up in what He give is, that we get distracted and our focus on Him kinda falls by the way! Know what I mean? Then He gives us trials and disappointments to bring us back and we cry out and get on track again. It's a cycle! You'd think by now we would catch on and just stay focused on Him all the time. Just think of all the trials we'd miss out on! Well, thankfully I am NOT God!!!

I also really like where Rich says, "If I weep, let it be as a man who is longing for his home." I sheepishly admit that often when I have cried over stupid trivial stuff, self pity included, the words of this song have been whispered in my heart. Really, that is pretty much the only thing we should cry over, because we long so badly to go home. I say "pretty much" because I believe there are other causes for tears that can be blessed. Like crying over the death of someone or crying over a lost loved on, etc. But most times we cry, it's foolishness. Sometimes we have to cry to get over things too, I'm not at all saying it's wrong to cry. But I just want to be so focused on the "mark of the high calling" that I don't cry over foolishness! Sigh, I'm afraid I will never be what I should be.....

There's another song that has these words, "Let me be so close to God that it's no big change on the day that Jesus calls my name!" Oh, that that could be true in my life! How I long for closer communion with God! This is my cry here of late. Shhhh! I'm scared to pray that though because I know what happens then, He sends more trials my way to bring me closer and........um..... I don't like trials!

God bless all who read my blog......and all the others who don't deserve it!!!!!! LOL!