Monday, November 9, 2009

A New Path

I can hardly believe that the day is all but here....the day that I have been dreaming of for a whole year! No, it's not the day that Jesus raptures His church! That has been on my mind for many years!!! I'd choose that above all else! No, this is the day I start my dream job, a nanny job! Will I know how to act? Will I know when to be firm and when to let things go? Can I go from a single's life to a "mom" of 3 children without being stressed out? Oh, I won't have a problem loving the kids! You see, I have spent 2 half days already with them and that is definitely not a problem! They are sweet children! I think I shall bond quickly with the 2 youngest. But it's the oldest, the 5 year old, that I hope I can win. I hope I can keep from being irritated at him. He seems to crave attention and he is very intelligent for his age. I hope I can spur him on to learn more and not just get frustrated when he gets smart alecky! I will have to get adjusted to shooting motions and loud "pow! boom!" noises. I really don't like loud noises but boys seem to like them and the 2 half days I was there, the oldest seemed to be all over that! Sigh! I don't like when kids act like they are shooting others either, so I will have to learn to put up with that too, unless I decide that I have the authority to tell them they may not pretend to shoot around me!

My heart's plea to God is that I can impact these little lives for His kingdom. I need to be a consistent godly example, one that they can fully trust, that they can respect and honor. God, help me to do that! With YOUR help I can! I believe that the parents might go to church but I have no idea what their relationship with God is. The fact that they go to church doesn't say a whole lot, only that they might have an interest in God.

I'm really hoping that I can get on a schedule of taking the kids to the library every week or every other. I love books and I like reading to kids so if I can take them weekly and have them pick out some books that'd be swell. It might be interesting to have to keep them together and make sure no books get lost but I think it could be done! Moms do it so I guess I can too! I'm also hoping to do crafts with them. I like crafts alot and I think I could get them excited about crafts. I never had a hard time being a sales lady, in other words I do have the gift of persuasion in some areas and I believe I could get the kids interested whether or not they are already!

Today was a fine and dandy day. I slept in of course. Why not, on my last day before my new job! Last night I got my last pictures put in an album....they'd been out the entire year so far and now my table is finally clean. Looks so nice! Now my printer is finally off the floor and I won't have to bend over to print stuff. My scrapbooking stuff is all tucked away and in it's case under the table. I finished some of my odds and ends that I really wanted to finish before I start work. Now updating my blog is the second to last thing on my list. The next thing I have to do is write letters. I don’t know if that will get done because soon I have to get ready to sing. I’m singing in the quartet tonight, with the Hursts.

Today my sister and mom came over. My sis just got back from Kentucky last night. She was there for 3 months, helping at a home with prison babies and handicapped people. I had not seen her for those 3 months. She stopped in last night a few minutes after midnight so I saw her then but just briefly. So she came over at noon and we had Papa John’s pizza and we had a nice time. She looked at the 4 picture albums I did while she was away and I looked at her pictures from Kentucky. Now I’m feeling sleepy but I must soon eat and get ready to sing. I feel like I’m coming down with a sore throat. It really doesn’t hurt yet but you know how it sometimes just feels like you’re getting something, kinda like a draggy feeling. Yuck! I hope it’s just a notion and doesn’t amount to anything!

Oh, how could I forget that I was at the dentist this morning! I was not in the mood, not that I’m ever in the mood! I was so afraid I’d have a cavity but I prayed and I asked my mentor to pray and thank you Jesus I had no cavities. I have so many fillings in my mouth that I don’t want to think about any more of them!

Well, I guess I won’t write again til I’ve started my new job. I’ll have lots to write about, I suppose!

Monday, October 26, 2009

Church, hayrides

I'm not sure what I'm even gonna write about this time around! I have been told that I need to update again! I have a faithful friend who faithfully reminds me when I'm slacking off! You know who you are girl! ARGH!:) Love you anyway!

Sunday night was a good night. Well, let me start with the morning! In the morning I went to a friend's church. She told me it's the penecostal/holy roller type of church where people get slain in the spirit and speak in tongues. Now I don't have a problem with being somewhat charismatic, with moderation. I tend to be charismatic and emotional myself! I don't have a problem with the speaking in tongues type of people either because that is biblical as long as there is an interpreter. But when it comes to "slain in the spirit" well, ummmm, let's just say it makes me uncomfortable. I cannot speak against it directly because I don't know what spirit is making them fall over but it surely gives me the heebie jeebies just thinking about it. I was brought up to use moderation and be in control of your body, one of the fruits of the Spirit is self control. So anyway, I shall not speak against it because I cannot judge but I surely don't welcome it to happen around me! So I went to that church and it was okay. I liked the worship and the preaching. No one fell over so it was alright!

In the afternoon I went to visit some friends and then in the evening I went on a hayride. Was a nicely crisp evening for that.

Tomorrow I am having a teaparty for an 8 year old girl. She loves pretty things so this will be fun for both of us. On Thursday I'm taking supper to my cousin in Myerstown. So my week is really cut out for me.

Well, it's time for work. I'd have more to write but I need to go to work. God bless til next time.

Monday, October 12, 2009

On Some ordinary day......

Like today the Lord will come! I had to think of that song and also the song "What a beautiful day for my Lord to come again" these last couple of days. As I drive to and from work and I see the AWESOME clouds, I just think of how it would feel to start floating up. I can just imagine those puffy white cotton candy clouds being pushed aside as my Lord splits open the sky and beams His church up to meet Him! I SURE CAN'T WAIT!! I always get teary when I think of that. With all my heart I am ready and anticipating His coming! Maranatha! There's also a song called "This may be the Cloud He's coming back in". I love that one too! You know, when I was little and we had those Arthur Maxwell Bible stories and in the 10th book there is a picture of people rising up out of their graves, that made a huge statement to me, a huge impression! I am a very visual person, with visual memory. I have not seen that picture for years but I can see it clear as day! Also, there is a picture in there of a person looking out of the window, watching for the Lord to come. That picture put some worries into my little head back then though. I was worried that what if I am sleeping when the Lord comes back? The Bible says to watch at all times! I can't watch when I'm sleeping! Oh, the innocently pure worries of a child. How little my worries were back then! How big my worries are now! I must perpetually remind myself that God will take care of His people. I have nothing to fear and what I do fear is stuff I'm bringing on myself!

Sunday was my birthday. I cannot believe that I am 28 already. Seems unreal. I feel like I am still 19/21. It's the feeling that counts, not the fact, right! At least in this situation. I had a co-worker, namely Lisa King, who was mean enough to tell me that I am OLD and that I need to start taking into consideration that it's about time for me to use a cane! She's so mean to me, but I love her anyway!:) I had a good birthday. It was pretty relaxing. I was at church in the morning. We had a very good sermon on slothfulness for Sunday school and the main sermon was on.......oh, goodness it was very good and spoke to me but do you think I can remember what it was on right now??? ARGH! It's not may age either!!!!!!! I just had a brain fart, that's all! I will think of it as soon as I close my blog, I'm sure. Anyway, then we had a fellowship dinner at church. Very nice! And then I went home and was going to sleep but I gabbed with my brother for an hour and a half and I did a few small things and maybe dozed off a little but not worth talking about. Then I went to Todd and Merci Brill for supper and the evening. They were so sweet to me and sang happy birthday and gave me nice gifts and the supper was good. Todd gave me a book that I had wanted very badly. I'd seen it somewhere and was carrying it around to buy and suddenly I put it back. I was low on money and just couldn't condone buying it at the time. And now I have it. Wasn't that a hug from God???!! I'm telling you, my Abba looks out for His kids!:) Merci gave me some hair stuff. She is helping me take care of my hair so that my hair can actually be my crowning glory like the Bible says, for my husband some day! So she gave me some good quality stuff to use on my hair. So I had a lovely birthday.

Oh, and Mom made my day, she mowed the lawn for me. I have really grown to despise mowing the lawn. So that was a wonderful gift that she did it for me. We do not have a bagger and Mom brought her mower and bagged it. So now our lawn looks very attractive! My mom's a sweetheart!

And, my dear friend Doris surprised me Saturday and she really made my day! She came to King's and dropped off a birthday cake and a gift. She made me feel loved!

Saturday night I was scrapbooking with about 6 other girls. They weren't all scrapbooking but we had a socializing party and each one was doing something. Some had needlework. So our mouths went as fast as our hands!:) We also went out for supper to Squireside Cafe. I had never eaten there before but it was good.

Thursday before we went singing, Rhonda and Steve had me over for supper. Each of the children gave me something too. It was all very special. I have such wonderful friends and family. I must remember to make others feel this special on their birthdays too! You know, like that country song "Circle of Love". Keep it going!

So now I'm already thinking of Valentine's Day. I love hearts and girly things and I'm not going to pretend that it won't hurt this year when my best friend Sharon has a sweetheart to share Valentine's Day with. I'm determined that instead of feeling sorry for myself, I will take it upon myself to make others feel loved, others who are single too. We can have a loving party for us single girls and lost love up on eachother!!!!! How bout it????!!!! We could even exchange Valentine's gifts! I always wondered how it would feel to get a cuddly soft doggie or teddy bear that says I LOVE YOU! Maybe the other girls feel the same way! I could have a fancy party at my house with dessert and send out lovely invitations and we could each bring a gift and play "Now you have it now you don't" with all Valentine stuff....Hmmmm, the ideas are really whirling in my head now!!!! Hey, Doris, remind me in Jan. lest I forget! I would have you and Bethany and Sharon and a few others of my single friends.

Well, it's past bedtime, I got a little carried away there, didn't I? Seems to be a habit here of late.........or....wait, maybe it has been a lifetime habit.........!!!

Monday, September 28, 2009

Normal Week

Well, I'd say this was a very normal week. Nothing out of the ordinary happening. On Wednesday I had my normal day off and it was maybe abnormal compared to what I have had the last many days off. For once I was a little bit more free than normal. Too often I plan things and then I don't even get to sleep in! Well, I got to sleep in and I went to get my license with Mom. That was in the same complex as Goodwill so we shopped in there as well. I miss our Ephrata Goodwill. I like Salvation Army better because they have half price items every Wednesday but I don't get there as often as I'd like because it's farther. The Ephrata Goodwill had a fire a couple months ago and I sure wish they'd open up again. I have found good stuff there. They are not as organized as Salvation Army or as big but I like em just the same! There fire was just in the back of the storage but I'm assuming it set sprinklers off and if it did, then I can understand that they'd have alot of water marks, i.e. stinky clothes to wash. Things might smell like smoke too.

Wednesday night was preparatory service instead of discipleship class. Then of course on Sunday was Communion. I like the way they do Communion. They have a pew at a time come up and get their bread and drink the wine (grape juice). It doesn't take long. Sunday afternoon I hung out with the Brills and my brother. Oh, what a nice time we had. Oh, and Saturday night I was at the Brills for a cookout. That was a great time as well. Sunday night Bethany and Sharon Martin came and we played Bible Challenge. I have really begun to like the game. My friend Amy Bryant was kind enough to read the directions and teach me how to play. I don't like reading the directions, it drives me crazy. So I am grateful to Amy because now I know how to play the game and others love it too. First we played "oh, my word" and then Bible challenge. We had so much fun that the last girl left at 12:10.

Tonight, Monday, I was at a birthday party for Trivette Rhoads. He turned 3. What a cutie he is. His parents had cake and icecream and a little party for him.

Tuesday night is the work banquet for King's employees. I look forward to that. I usually have fun at those.

Wednesday night is discipleship class and Thursday night I have free and Friday night I get Johann Brill for the weekend. We'll see how he likes working with me at King's cause I have to work that day. I got tickets for a Ken Davis night and I look forward to that. Saturday night I'll probably go out to eat with him.

Well, have a good week everybody!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Talents, Inspirations, Discipline!

Oh, boy, where do I begin? I'll start with that I've been struggling with this past LONG while! Can you guess? Discipline! Who can tell me the importance of discipline? What must I do to learn it? Must a great calamity fall upon me so I get the drift? God forbid, but let me learn an easier way! But how can I teach it to myself? Let me explain what I mean by discipline! Eating is one of them. Our body is supposed to be subject to us, not us to it. So I should teach it that it does not get whatever it wants, when it wants it, right? Why is it that I have a huge problem with that? It seems like I cannot stand it when my stomach is growling, I just have to eat! But sometimes it should not be hungry, it just thinks it is! Why can't I ignore it and not eat? The other huge thing is bedtime. It's only gotten worse this past while and I'm so annoyed with myself. I know that our body is the temple of the Holy God and as a Christian, it is my duty to take as best care of it as I possibly can. So why can't I hike off to bed when it's time and my body is saying it's tired? It's like I'm possessed with an insane urge to finish certain things first and night after night after night it gets way too late for a girl like me to be up! It'd be one thing if I'd be up that late praying. But no, that's the sad thing, I get into bed and it's so very late and I just crash, I don't have time to say much of a prayer, just a short one for a few of my favorite people. GRRR! But if I go to bed without geting certain things done, I'd probably lie there and not be able to sleep because I know that work is still waiting to get done. Oh, can someone help me discipline myself. I don't want to get mono or some other sickness, if I do I will be so sorry that I did not take better care of my body. Maybe I should be accountable to someone. Sigh, but that's a bother too! Oh, and excercise is another fault of mine. It's not a first priority, and how do I make it one? I need to burn more calories but I will be honest and say I just really don't enjoy exercising. It's just not very fun and there's oh, so much other stuff to do that is more appealing. Can someone scare me or convict me or something so that I put my priorities on the right place and use self discipline before God takes it into His hands!

Okay, the other thing is talents. I am so inspired today, being at Uncle Dick's memorial. He was such a wonderful man. If I live to be 79, will others be able to say as many good things about me as they did about him? He was talented in so many things. The list is just long. But, he used every one of his talents, he milked em for all they were worth. I feel so little and useless compared to him. He would not want me to feel that way at all, I know that. He would hate that. But at the rate I'm going right now, what will I have to show for my life by the time I'm 79? What do I have to show for being 27? Have I used the talents that God gave me to their fullest or am I just floating along with the breeze, enjoying what happens to come my way? Am I grumbling that I don't have more talents or that I don't have the talents that I wish I had? There was not a lazy bone in Dick's body. He worked like an animal, yet somehow he had time for all his friends. I am a workaholic, but I don't always take time for my friends, and that's scary because friends do not stay friends if you do not nurture relationships. I tend to spend time with them when it suits me best, and if they call and I have other things planned I say no. I don't think Dick was that way at all, if someone wanted to visit him I believe he dropped his things and spent time with them. I know I have writing talent and I do use that, but I don't think I'm using it as much as I could be. I don't know, I'm just feeling pretty small right now and wondering where to even start! I just really have not done as much for others as I wish I would have by now. How can I know when it's time to just let my work sit and go make some old lady's day by visiting her, or let my work sit and go help a busy mom who's in despair with her workload? I have the ability to go farther in school. Why didn't I? I loved school and I could have gone to college. But I didn't want to spend the money, I wanted to earn money instead. Was I selfish? But do you have to do everything you are capable of doing just because you have the capability to do it? No! LOL! I know that much! I guess I just need to get prayed up some more and ask Jesus to show me where I am not using my talents to the fullest and to help me be in the center of His will, not just on the outskirts!

Does anyone else struggle with any of these things? Am I alone? No, I won't believe I'm alone! The devil likes to isolate people in their problems, but that strategy doesn't work with me because I know better. If no one leaves comments then I will know you all are just not admitting to anything:):):)

Sometime I have some other questions that I want folks to answer on but right now this is enough. I want to hear your advice and suggestions on this first! So, now your job is to let me know what you think!!!!!!!

Friday, September 11, 2009

Another week of God's Grace

Well........I keep wanting to post another question for my readers to comment on but time keeps running away from me:( One of these days........so in the meantime I'll just write normal stuff that doesn't take much thought or many brains.....

Last night I got word that Dick James may not live more than a week.....or a day for that matter. Sounds like he's doing very poorly. I know it sounds awfully cruel to pray that someone could just die, but that's what I pray because the poor man has been suffering so much from his cancer. I hope he just dies in his sleep and very soon, too. He is not eating really anything and hospice is helping him to be comfortable as much as they can. His poor wife Pat is run ragged. She doesn't sleep much when she hears him stir or moan. Their dear daughter Cindy is there alot, pretty much every night, God bless her. Cindy's reward will be great in heaven because she has helped out the Jameses so much as well as taken care of her inlaws. I'm just waiting to get a call any day now that Dick has moved to his new home.

I was sick all day yesterday. So far I feel good today........do I dare to even say that???? Oh, well, I do not believe in superstition so I may say what I wish and that will not change anything! I do not normally get stomach flues, hardly even once a year, but I sure had something yesterday. I had a bitter taste in my mouth all day and didn't know if I dared to eat but I managed to keep food down. I wasn't sure if I should sing with Steve's in the evening but I did that too. I felt very refreshed to sing and wished we could have sung longer. I miss choir so badly, wish I could be in it this time.

Speaking of choir reminds me why I am not in it this time around. The church I attend, Living Waters, is having their discipleship courses every Wednesday night for anyone transferring membership. So I am married to that, every Wednesday night. So far we've had an introductory one and lesson 1. 11 more Wednesdays to go, which will take us into the first week of December. Yuck, December, let's not think on that:( I don't want winter to be here yet. Sigh! I am forever bothered by how fast time flies, and no one encourages me, but they rather discourage me because they all say it gets worse as you get older........wah!

On Saturday if nothing changes, I think I shall just be lazy and scrapbook my heart out again! Well, that's not really lazy at all, it's just working as you're sitting down:) So I hope I can do that because I need to get my pictures in so badly! I have not done any pics for this year yet besides Israel pics. I have not even put in my moving pictures......I was working on that when I went to Israel and now I've been doing Israel pics ever since. Work fast, Dawn, work!:) But I want it to be really neat and full of new ideas so I'm taking my good old time. Rather neat and slow than fast and sloppy.

Sunday I have a tea party to attend. I am SOOOOOO looking forward to that. I love dressing up Victorian and it just sounds like a pile of fun. Then in the evening, I have a baptism to attend. Johann Brill gets baptized. So my weekend is cut out for me, not a chance of boredom.

Well, that's all for now, maybe next time I will actually get to write my debateable material for you all to comment on!

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Longwood Garden, Misc.

Well, it seems like awhile since I wrote. Well, this weekend from Thursday til Sunday morning, I had a guest at my house. My friend/adopted sis Amy Bryant stayed at my house. It was great to see her again. We had fun shopping at the Tanger Outlets on Friday. Amy got some goodies. On Saturday we went to the BEAUTIFUL Longwood Gardens. I had not been there for a little while. I saw it over Christmastime twice and saw it in the summer once when I got my pictures taken there. So this was at least the 4th time I have been there. Oh, but it is so worth the money. Now that I have my own house, I appreciate it even more when I see all the work that goes into a flower garden. It’s time consuming and tough to keep everything in tip-top shape! We enjoyed the water fountains in the Italian garden, especially. I could write poems to that sound, if only I was left to myself at that spot. And, I would love to spend time there with God, just me and Him. I need to find that sign that they have on metal, you know, to put in a garden. The sign reads: The ___ of the ___ for pardon, the kiss of the sun for mirth, one’s nearer to God in a garden, than anyplace else on earth! I forget some of the words but anyway I love the saying. After we got done at the gardens, we ate at Applebee’s and then we went to Lancaster to a furniture shop. We found an ice cream place where they actually make the ice cream on the premises. It’s really a cute place and all kinds of unique flavors. I had a banana nut bread ice cream, so yummy! I tasted a mint sample and that was very refreshing. Next, we went to Salvation Army and Ollies. Then we went home and I had the Brill boys for the evening. We ordered Papa John’s pizza. It was a lovely evening. Amy liked the Brills like I thought she would.
This week was normal. Today I worked for my aunt. It’s been ages since I’ve been there. I cleaned her pantry. I love organizing stuff so that was right down my alley. I shopped at Horning’s a little. Found some pears for $6.50 a basket. Found some cream of chicken soup for 3/$1. I wish the bent and dent places down this way would be as cheap as Horning’s. It seems like food is more plentiful and better priced up through. GRRR!
By the way, I love living at my house. I am so thrilled we get to stay another year. God is so good! I did not want to move and it just seems like an awful lot of work to only live there a year. What will happen after that? I’m not gonna worry about that. That would be borrowing tomorrow’s trouble and I have enough in the current time to add to that! Now that Sharon’s dating, I could perhaps have to find another housemate til then but I’m not going to think about that either. For all I know, maybe I’ll be courted by my future husband til then too! Part of the adventure of serving God is that you never know what the future holds. It could be mighty exciting, or it could have a lot of grief, or some of both. But, this one thing I know: my God is bigger than life itself and because I am one of His kids, I get to inherit a mansion in the end so whatever it takes to get there is okay. I already know He is in control and He promised to take care of me and give me the best. What more could I ask for? I feel bad for those who don’t claim Him as their Daddy. They’re missing out BIG TIME!
I really had a stressful day yesterday. This is a holiday weekend and we expect to get some extra business at the store. So yesterday I was putting out the Christmas stuff. Yeah, yeah, I know, it’s ridiculous how early we have to put seasonal stuff out. I don’t like it at all. I get tired of the season before it’s even here. And, you know how fast time goes? Well, it seems to even hurry the year along! And, we got tons of stuff in and I was so tired til I was able to come home. And we had gotten a lot of Dunn plaques and picture in and there’s a bunch of walls to do Sigh! My feet were sore by lunch time already from working so hard.
Wednesday night we went to church. It was the first of 12 more meetings for the discipleship program they use for transferring membership. That will be every Wednesday night til December. I have to skip choir this time around, which really disappoints me but that’s part of life I guess.
Well, that’s all for now.