Confirmation!

Well, today is Mother's Day so I decided to go to my parent's church to surprise my mother. I wasn't excited to do that but I figured I'll do it for her because she is worth that and so much more! I made sure Dad knew but he kept it a secret. My sis HAD to be in Perry county with her boyfriend but the rest of us were together and I know it made Mom happy.

Now this is not a post to drag down, point fingers, or downgrade the church in any way, shape or form. I am proud of having grown up in the Horning church. I learned alot of invaluable things there. It's just that I felt a clear call to move on and today was just a clear confirmation that I did the right thing.

On a happy note first, I still felt the warmth there. No one stared at me even though I was not wearing covering strings. You must understand that I don't believe I have been there for 6 or 7 months! Anyway, I saw a good friend whom I used to be really close to before she got married and I had not seen her since her wedding in December. She was elated to see me and that was fun to see her face light up in true joy at seeing me. Another married friend caught my eye as I went in.

Now for some clarifications....I had forgotten how it is to sit in benches with only one bar across for your back, thus enabling others to be moving their knees and legs around (behind you) and bumping your back/butt each time! Sigh, it's so distracting and aggravating! Not to mention that alot of young girls put their toes on the bench in front of them. I did this still, too, but I made sure it was not against the lap of the person it was beside and if they moved, I moved to make sure they had their space. The aggravating part is that I had the luck, like so often before, to get in front of someone who was not considerate in this way and she did a good job of poking my butt with her dumb shoe and putting it againt my butt/beside it. I wanted so badly to reach back and push her foot off the bench or pinch it! I did move my butt back so it forced her foot off the bench! People are so inconsiderate! GRRR! Also, there is a girl who somehow manages to sit behind me, I mean she used to and she did again this time and she cannot sing on tune for anything. She obviously doesn't know it because she sings loudly. If someone tries to sing suprano and is off tune, it's one thing. But this girl tries to sing alto and I wish she'd give it up. I cannot abide a loud offkey voice right behind my ear. Some girls are followers and can stay on tune with someone to follow so I started blaring alot and believe it or not, she was on tune some of the time after that! I know we are to make a joyful noise unto the Lord but it's hard for me to not let an offkey voice distract me!

So, those are just petty things, not the clarification I got for leaving, just things I don't miss at all!!!!!! Now for the clarification: the sermon. I believe the minister did his God-given best, God bless his heart! He was from New York and I sensed he was sincere. However, nothing has changed since I left. They don't go deep in the verses. I already knew everything they said. I don't mean to be haughty in any way or think that I'm any better or smarter than the ministry, God forbid that attitude! But honestly, why would I stay at a church where I don't get fed at all? I tried to get something out of it but it just seems like they go around in circles and spend time not really saying anything. It's hard to explain but afterward you ask yourself "what did he preach on?" and I don't even know what to say. I was so drowsy and it was a battle to keep awake. I should have taken to writing poetry like I used to do at times but I didn't bother to do that!

So, I am so glad I left, with all due respects. I do feel like I missed out big time on the sermon at Living Waters where I normally attend now. I'll have to ask Sharon what they preached on. Wish I could have been there but I am glad I made Mama happy. I went to their place for lunch and I gave my mother a crossword puzzle and found out what she really wanted was a word search puzzle! I was disappointed but I hope she enjoys this one anyway! I encouraged her to try it.

Well, I guess I'll go write some letters now. Happy Mother's Day to all that are mothers!