Here's a beautiful poem I recently got ahold of:
WAIT
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried.
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and wept for a clue to my fate.
And the Master so gently said, "Child you must wait."
"Wait, you say, wait," my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
By faith I have asked and am claiming your Word.
My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me WAIT?
I'm needing a 'Yes', a go-ahead sign.
Or even a 'No', to which I can resign
And Lord, You promised that if we believe
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord, I've been asking and this is my cry.
I'm weary of asking, I need a reply."
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again,
"You must wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
And grumbled to God, "So I'm waiting, for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes wept with mine,
And He tenderly said,
"I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, cause the mountains to run.
All you seek I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want, but you wouldn't know me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power I give to the faint.
You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair.
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in me
When darkness and silence were all you could see.
You would never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of the Spirit descends like a dove.
You would not know the depth of the beat of my heart,
The glow of my comfort, late in the night,
The faith that I give, when you walk without sight,
The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked
Of an infinite God who makes what you have lost.
You never would know, would your pain quickly flee,
What it means that "My grace is sufficient for thee."
Yes, your dreams for your heart's cry,
overnight could come true,
But Oh, the loss, if I lost what I am doing in you.
So be silent my child, and in time you will see,
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And tho' oft my answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still - WAIT."
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Autumn is almost here!
Here’s part of a circle letter I wrote. Usually I write my blog first and then build my letters off of my blog but this time I did it the other way around!
Nothing really new is happening in my life at the moment. I’m still enjoying being a nanny to three children. Things are much calmer and enjoyable now that the 6 year old went to school. Is that rude of me to say that? I hope not, but it’s the truth! He was the cause of 75% of any & all trouble! He has the attitude and rebellious and mean spirit and all manner of rudeness. The 3 year old boy Evan and almost 2 year old Lyla are so sweet tempered and listen very well most of the time. They don’t fight much at all. But when 6 year old Reece is home, you can forget about any kind of sweet peace you had earlier! He’s very bright for his age and he is the nicest boy when he wants to be….just wish he wanted to be more often! Now that he goes to school he is acting more respectful to me, hope it lasts. It is helping that he has been having a drawn out punishment of no tv and it keeps getting longer from things he does. His parents put that law down and I’m glad because he is definitely a different boy when he doesn’t watch tv. Suddenly I’m not getting a battering ram (his head) in my stomach anymore! Suddenly I’m not being punched. It’s amazing how children try to act like the ugly characters they see on tv. I have grown to despise tv so badly. The things they call children’s shows…some of them are not fit for grownups to watch! Anyway, for schooI I get him up at 6:30 and have him out by the bus stop by 7:15. I don’t see him til 4pm then. Three mornings in a row this week I could not awaken him. Have you ever heard of such a thing? But how do you awaken someone who will not get up? I thought it was stubbornness at first because last year in kindergarten he refused to get out and I had to bribe and /or threaten him each time. But, this year he had been hopping out of bed when I called him….until this week. I realized it must be the cold medicine they gave him for night because he was so knocked out! I took his covers off and his pillow away and his head flopped facedown on the bed and he didn’t budge. I grabbed his arm and shook him back and forth pretty forcibly. I tickled his feet. I poked his side. Finally at long last I slapped his legs hard enough to make them sting, like 6 different times! I had to get his dad to get him up. I was so thankful he hadn’t gone out the door yet. I didn’t know what I was going to try next!
This next week my church has revivals so I will be busy all week. Also, I am going to a woman’s seminar. They say it’s usually really good, I hope they are right. I was never at revivals before so I hate to miss out on some of my church’s revivals but when I signed up for the seminars I had no idea they were over the same time.
I am looking forward so much to meeting my new cousin. My aunt & uncle have adopted 2 adorable Chinese girls over the last several years and now they are supposed to come back from China tonight with a 10 year old boy. He is going to need surgeries on his feet. He was burned with boiling water, I can’t remember if it was abuse or if it was an accident. But I am hoping they aren’t too tired from jetlag and can come to church on Sunday. He doesn’t speak English, only Mandarin. He has some kind of electronic gadget that translates. My aunt is going to homeschool him this school term because he’ll be in and out of the hospital. Not to mention, I don’t think he’d understand all the English!
In August I was at a Bible conference for a week. It’s called Harvey Cedars and it’s on Long Beach Island. I was there last year too. It’s right on the shoreline so pretty much everyone goes to the beach over the afternoon where there’s free time. It’s such an awesome atmosphere…..most of the people there are from the conference and it makes a whole different atmosphere than other beaches. People dress more modestly too. We went over homeschool week so there are a lot of folks from Holiness churches and they dress modestly….they look like Mennonites except without the coverings. I really enjoyed the speakers. One was a scientist, he did really amazing things and was able to bring God into everything. He built his first computer when he was 9! Imagine! We also had the chancellor from a Bible College as well as a guy who tells stories word for word from the Bible and he is on TV on some high falluting show in NY. I bought some of his KJV stories on cd. He reads them with such expression that you don’t even notice the “thee’s and thou’s” of it! It is hard to believe it is straight from the Bible.
This year I was in Cancun Mexico for a whole week at a resort as well as in Florida for a whole week. My boss took me along on their trips so I could take care of the children. I don’t know if they are doing any next year or not. I hope to do a mission trip with my sister but I’m not sure where yet. Nothing so far was falling into place. I guess if God wants us to go somewhere then he will orchestrate the details. It is my only chance to do it with my only sister bccause I’m quite sure she will be getting married in the near future.
Nothing really new is happening in my life at the moment. I’m still enjoying being a nanny to three children. Things are much calmer and enjoyable now that the 6 year old went to school. Is that rude of me to say that? I hope not, but it’s the truth! He was the cause of 75% of any & all trouble! He has the attitude and rebellious and mean spirit and all manner of rudeness. The 3 year old boy Evan and almost 2 year old Lyla are so sweet tempered and listen very well most of the time. They don’t fight much at all. But when 6 year old Reece is home, you can forget about any kind of sweet peace you had earlier! He’s very bright for his age and he is the nicest boy when he wants to be….just wish he wanted to be more often! Now that he goes to school he is acting more respectful to me, hope it lasts. It is helping that he has been having a drawn out punishment of no tv and it keeps getting longer from things he does. His parents put that law down and I’m glad because he is definitely a different boy when he doesn’t watch tv. Suddenly I’m not getting a battering ram (his head) in my stomach anymore! Suddenly I’m not being punched. It’s amazing how children try to act like the ugly characters they see on tv. I have grown to despise tv so badly. The things they call children’s shows…some of them are not fit for grownups to watch! Anyway, for schooI I get him up at 6:30 and have him out by the bus stop by 7:15. I don’t see him til 4pm then. Three mornings in a row this week I could not awaken him. Have you ever heard of such a thing? But how do you awaken someone who will not get up? I thought it was stubbornness at first because last year in kindergarten he refused to get out and I had to bribe and /or threaten him each time. But, this year he had been hopping out of bed when I called him….until this week. I realized it must be the cold medicine they gave him for night because he was so knocked out! I took his covers off and his pillow away and his head flopped facedown on the bed and he didn’t budge. I grabbed his arm and shook him back and forth pretty forcibly. I tickled his feet. I poked his side. Finally at long last I slapped his legs hard enough to make them sting, like 6 different times! I had to get his dad to get him up. I was so thankful he hadn’t gone out the door yet. I didn’t know what I was going to try next!
This next week my church has revivals so I will be busy all week. Also, I am going to a woman’s seminar. They say it’s usually really good, I hope they are right. I was never at revivals before so I hate to miss out on some of my church’s revivals but when I signed up for the seminars I had no idea they were over the same time.
I am looking forward so much to meeting my new cousin. My aunt & uncle have adopted 2 adorable Chinese girls over the last several years and now they are supposed to come back from China tonight with a 10 year old boy. He is going to need surgeries on his feet. He was burned with boiling water, I can’t remember if it was abuse or if it was an accident. But I am hoping they aren’t too tired from jetlag and can come to church on Sunday. He doesn’t speak English, only Mandarin. He has some kind of electronic gadget that translates. My aunt is going to homeschool him this school term because he’ll be in and out of the hospital. Not to mention, I don’t think he’d understand all the English!
In August I was at a Bible conference for a week. It’s called Harvey Cedars and it’s on Long Beach Island. I was there last year too. It’s right on the shoreline so pretty much everyone goes to the beach over the afternoon where there’s free time. It’s such an awesome atmosphere…..most of the people there are from the conference and it makes a whole different atmosphere than other beaches. People dress more modestly too. We went over homeschool week so there are a lot of folks from Holiness churches and they dress modestly….they look like Mennonites except without the coverings. I really enjoyed the speakers. One was a scientist, he did really amazing things and was able to bring God into everything. He built his first computer when he was 9! Imagine! We also had the chancellor from a Bible College as well as a guy who tells stories word for word from the Bible and he is on TV on some high falluting show in NY. I bought some of his KJV stories on cd. He reads them with such expression that you don’t even notice the “thee’s and thou’s” of it! It is hard to believe it is straight from the Bible.
This year I was in Cancun Mexico for a whole week at a resort as well as in Florida for a whole week. My boss took me along on their trips so I could take care of the children. I don’t know if they are doing any next year or not. I hope to do a mission trip with my sister but I’m not sure where yet. Nothing so far was falling into place. I guess if God wants us to go somewhere then he will orchestrate the details. It is my only chance to do it with my only sister bccause I’m quite sure she will be getting married in the near future.
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