In December we had a most pleasant surprise! I found out I am pregnant! I was so excited. Scared but ecstatic!
I am 5 months along now. I am definitely growing! I was never really tiny but let’s just say I surely am not tiny now, for sure! I just hope the baby fat doesn’t hang around after the baby is born! I don’t want to feel like a fat old hag! OOOH my husband would slap me for saying that! He would never let me say such things about myself. Cause even if I am fat for awhile, that doesn’t make me an old hag! It is so weird to watch my body change as well as my eating habits! I am starting week 21. I am 5 months along and that means half way through! About 2 weeks ago, I had to stop wearing all my usual wardrobe! Just don’t fit anymore! I have only 2 maternity dresses which my dear aunt sewed for me. Tuesday she will draw up a pattern for me so I can sew myself some more dresses. 2 is not enough to get by with! I have some skirts and blouses that fit, but barely! Let me warn you, boobs don’t stay the same size when you are prego! Lol! My belly isn’t as much the problem as my boobs are! It’s all so new and weird to me but I love baby planning. Yard sales have become fun. When I first moved out and needed stuff for a house, yard sales became fun. After I had my house stocked, yard sales weren’t all that great. Now that I need baby stuff, yard sales are awesome again! Just this weekend I was doing yard sales and got a baby swing, carseat, jogging stroller, highchair, baby carrier, and some clothes. Problem is, our house is small and I have to get rid of some things to make room for baby appliances. My sister in law said I may use their dry sink so I think I will take her up on that instead of buying one. When you are in ministry work you have to rely on God for money to pay the bills. I never know where the next rent money will come from or money to buy gas for the car, etc. but God had always been faithful and never let us sit in need. So if someone lets me borrow things, I take them up on it! I was used to always having enough, and extra to buy things I really didn’t need but just wanted. Now I have to rely on God to provide even the necessities. It really stretches me. I can’t say I enjoy it but it is helping me grow and helping me see just how faithful God is. Sometimes there are tears as I worry about how we will have funds to take care of our baby and if anything should go wrong with the home birth and I’m forced to go to a hospital, where would that money come from? We set money aside for the home birth but that’s WAY less than a hospital birth. But again, worrying is not trusting God and I must keep striving to trust. I do not believe God will let our baby go hungry, nor us for that matter.
While you all were freezing, we were in the sunny south. Only got to the beach twice in those 10 weeks though. This was a Holy Spirit school. They don’t have a curriculum there. They have a bunch of teachers who are Holy Spirit led and whatever God puts on their hearts to teach is what we learn. We learn an entirely different mindset. It’s awesome! We put in over 300 hours of school. We learned so much I don’t know where to start. We learned about finances. We learned that if you don’t tithe 10% you are actually stealing from God, and your tithe money should always go to the place where you are getting spiritually fed, which is your church usually. Tithing is required, and anything you give above that is called “giving” or “sowing”. People who tithe and sow will be blessed and it will multiply and come back to them and they will prosper. I already knew about the tithing and have been doing that for a long time. I hadn’t known about the sowing and that is a hard thing for me to do at times, especially since we don’t always have enough to pay our bills. I wonder why we would give money away to people if we don’t even have money to pay our phone bills or rent, etc. But then I realize, how can it multiply and come back to us if we don’t give it out. It’s just a whole new mindset that I’m still adjusting to. We learned a lot about the end times prophecies, some about the current events but a lot of Revelation and Daniel. I had learned a lot of it a few years ago from that pastor I told you about but this was a great refresher and now my husband understands it all too. We learned how to worship and how praise isn’t the same as worship. Worship is when you are praising and you enter a deeper intimate level with Jesus where the things of earth become strangely dim and you are truly in the throne room with God. Oh, and we learned about the baptism of the Holy Spirit and tongues. My husband already had tongues but because he had backslidden a few years (before he courted me), he had lost it. God renewed his tongues and now I have it too. It’s awesome to think that I speak things to God that I don’t even know what I’m saying and it drives the devil crazy cause he can’t interpret tongues so he doesn’t know what I’m saying either! We learned about the gifts of the Holy Spirit and took tests to see which are most prominent in our lives. My top one was Mercy! My husband’s was Hospitality. We saw people healed before our eyes. I thought maybe my eyes would be healed so I wouldn’t need glasses but they weren’t. My feet were having issues hurting because of the extra weight I guess and they were healed. Something in my womb was healed. Not sure what, but something changed. Oh, and my baby was prophesied over. We believe it’s a boy. If we are wrong, we do have girl clothes too. But the prophecies that were given said “he” and we already had believed in our hearts that we are having a boy so it was a confirmation. We will love the baby if it’s a girl too! This feels like sort of a lame post but it's part of a letter I wrote to a friend and thought I would share it on here so I can kill a few birds at once! Hopefully I do better at writing and I will try to write again before the baby is born!
