Friends

I am thinking about friends today. I am so grateful to God that He gave us relationships with others. Where would I be without relationships? I'm talking about relationships with fellow Believers. We all need eachother to keep us in line. How boring life would be without good friends, how lonely. It proves to me that God is a relationship oriented God. He wants a relationship with each one of us. Even my birds desire relationships. When I clean their cage, they try to come out and be with me. It reminds me everytime that that is how God is, always seeking a deeper relationship with me, always trying to get my attention.

I wish answers would drop out of the sky sometimes. You know, God wants us to know and do His will, right? Well, I wish sometimes that some things would just be in black and white! How I dislike going through periods of not knowing what choices I should make. However, I get the feeling that God does that purposely just to make us cry out to Him. Sure makes me pray harder and longer and more frequently! It definitely makes me rely on Him more. Makes me seek His face. I do love how He uses other godly people in our lives to nudge us in the right direction. Mentors are such blessings! I love people who have been through alot themselves and can talk from experience. It's awesome to know that Jesus was tempted in all things too, so we can know He understands from experience as well, not just because He is God. Sometimes I used to wish I had been through more, like what do I have to offer the girls at the Lancaster County Youth Intervention Center? I have been raised in a godly home, I have 2 parents, not just 1, I have grown up with church, I've never been into drugs, evil music, and many of the other things they face. But, now that I am older I am thankful that I did not have experience with all that. I might not be able to reach them through experience in those areas, but I can reach them in other ways. I believe in divine appointments, and I know that every girl I meet in there, it was ordained of God and somehow by His grace, I will be able to touch them for His kingdom, even when I can't figure out how I could possibly have left an impression.

Sometimes I feel as though I have gone through a dry season this last maybe 3 months. I mean for the witnessing part. I am currently praying that God renews that passion and connection and burden for lost souls. I know that right now I do not have the passion I previously had. I think, well, I pretty much know that it is a result of my own current struggles, my focus has been taken off witnessing and centered on some of the things I am facing right now. Not to mention, a certain guy has done an ugly job of distracting me.......but I am determined to refocus and to recapture that passion. I don't forsee some of these other struggles passing very quickly, but maybe God will still give me back my passion anyway and not make me wait til I have pulled through!

Okay, enough of my spontaneous babble! Time to go to work!